Showing posts with label Goals. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Goals. Show all posts

6.15.2011

Jenny Craig

Jenny Craig or JC for short was the balance that I was seeking. It helped give me my glow back, filling me with a new-found freedom.  One the perks of JC was having a council to talk to, it was freeing to be able to talk to someone that wasn't a close friend of mine.  I found that friends will tell you one thing when you really just need someone to support you in a true unattached way.  Don't tell me I`m fine the way I am, when clearly I don't feel that way.  Another obvious great thing about JC was the meals were made for you. You didn't have to think about what you were going to eat or if it was going to make you feel groggy.
 Then late Fall of 2007, I got an 8 to 5 job at a special effects shop called ADI. I was surrounded by squids of the effects world. Everyone had a love for movies and wanted to share this love. The first couple of months I worked there I was educated on some of the basic things I love to this day. We traded movies, music, artists to know, and of course stories.
 These stories then became emotionally confusing, leaving me drained in a different way. The one thing I had to keep me sane was JC. Jenny Craig was always there for me, even if I was unaware of it at the time. It gave me the hope and air that I needed.
 I was growing, becoming more brave and learning to believe in myself. My body was beginning to feel whole--even my thoughts were growing stronger, taking in everything.

5.05.2011

Checkin off my list


I've been thinking about the goals that I have for this year and I`m clearly falling behind on them. Even if my nose is clogged with a sinus infection a second time over, for the first time in a while I feel active and a need to be present in my life. My goals somehow seemed to have been pushed aside because of the feeling of pure fatigue from my nasty cold for a whole month. Now I have no excuses for my slacking; I need to remember to take time to do the things that I love. To give myself time in the day to breathe and live the life that I am meant to have.