When I was 22, I was all about Pattie Boyd.Rock and romance of the 60`s and 70`s always gets my attention.
She had just come out with her biography,Wonderful Tonight.
During that summer I read George Harrison`s I * ME * MINE, and then of course wanted anything I could get my hands on about Pattie Boyd.

It came out at a perfect time. I was working at a great shop and enjoying everyone's company. But I was growing and starting to let go of things that were holding me back, coming of age I guess you would call it. Learning about my strengths, how far you could push me,how far I could push myself,finding new adventures,going on awful dates and repressing emotions that I thought I would never feel.

During the summer of 2008 I locked myself in a new apartment reading To Kill A Mockingbird for the first time.

I was learning grace and the reasons why men are pretty simple at times. Or just why you have to own who you are as a person. What every Southern girl should know best is how to acknowledge her own beauty and how to know who she is as a person.

Although she might not be right out there beautiful, there is just something about Sarah Jessica Parker that`s right out sexy. She owns who she is as a person, caries herself upright and wears her clothes as if she is meant to be in them. The character Carrie shouldn't make one feel as if she should reject her vagina. In fact every character on that show owns who she is and doesn't shy away from it. I came across a blog that bashed SJP the other day. I noted the irony of a young woman who lives a life very similar to Miss Bradshaw, writing observations about relationships and cities and careers... But she can't stand Sex in the City.

Girls at times will do things for shock value. I am not saying that I have never done something like that. But why would I want to try to be anything that I am not? Or speak a vulgar language, abuse my sexuality, use huge words to sound smarter all for the attention of the male sex? When I could just be myself, without broadcasting again and again that I am these things.

I AM THESE things because of this or that, but there comes a time when you have to accept it and then move on. Instead of trying to always bring up why you do certain things, pick certain people to date, and draw from these boils to create whatever your creative endeavors may be. Own it and stop holding it over everyone's head. That is when things fall into place in the whole matter. THESE THINGS do not define you as a person, it's what you take from THOSE THINGS that will define you as a human.

THOSE THINGS will stare you in the face and not let go just like a face hugger.

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